but I was preparing myself because I knew I was faced with a decision for my own good that was going to lead to death?
Funny that one of the ads triggered by your question is for "Die casting."
One interpretation: "Dying" may indicate a change of emotion, a development. If the decision "is for your own good," you are more likely "doing the right thing," as with Saint Paul's "I die (ascend to God) daily."
"Emotions," Marilyn Barrick, Ph.D.,
"Testimony of Light," Greaves,
"The Great Divorce," C. S. Lewis,
"Men in White Apparel," Colton.
Example: Repetitive Dream?
Since I was a child I have had this dream, the feeling is safe and warm, there is a tall graceful woman and a short pudgy man. I always see them in silhouette like light is behind them and I never see their faces. The man wears a bowler hat and the woman is in a dress with a bustle. The colors in the dream are a sand or sandy background and black swirling lines like India ink on sand colored paper. The dream is bright but dim at the same time if you know what I mean. What could this dream mean?